Soulmate (or soul mate) is a term sometimes used to designate someone with whom one has a feeling of deep and natural affinity, friendship, love, intimacy, sexuality, and/or compatibility.
Is it easy to wish for bad stuffs? I’m just asking.. Because it’s really hard for me? I wish happiness for A but yet I do not wish that they remain together. However, when I pray, I can’t possibly wish that they break up or something, that’s so terrible.. So I’ve no idea what to wish for.. I wish there comes a day, where we can be together again.
Seriously, when you are so deeply involved in something like that, the magnitude of his actions doesn’t matter anymore. Everything that he does, if a third party hears/knows of it, it may be extremely terrible. But for me, everything he once did, is just a blur now. I only know we love each other, full stop. Blinded by love eh?
I’m trying, really really hard, to be independent. Not to rely on either A or C too much. A has his own attachments (girl), C… C can’t be with me forever.. I can’t over-rely on him.. Although he really makes me smile a lot.. Just find his messages and behavior very cute.. haha..
It’s after all just a relationship right? Without a guy, I won’t die right? Yeah right.. I don’t know.. It’s nice to have company.. That day when C drove me in his car, the feeling of happiness came back again. Made me miss my car a lot really.. Then we went airport to eat ice-cream =)
I refused to move on because I don’t want a day to come when A and I have a chance again, but because I moved on, I no longer love him that much anymore.. I will have so much regrets if that happened..
That’s why I refused to move on.. Stupid reason right.. What if things on his side worked out fine? Then I’m dead lor.. When I think back on how deeply he once loved me, I just cry.. It’s quite heartbreaking to know that this guy loves you so much once, but now love you less than another girl.. It’s really quite pain ok..
