Contemplations & Indulgence

It’s so weird or apt, depending on how you would like to look at it.

I don’t usually like to talk to people who keep giving ‘advices’ every step of the way but the conversation was quite different that night.

It’s like two different person. One on first look I’ll prefer to talk to, simply because he is as indulgent as me. We love to pamper ourselves. We spend money like nobody’s business, we don’t blink an eye to drop a bomb for an item. We are lazy, we are self-centred. So I should like to talk to him more right. And yep that’s true.

The other one is a semi-religious sort of I guess. He likes to give advices, sought or unsought. I shouldn’t like to talk to this kind of person. But maybe it was the time of the conversation or maybe it was his mood but I had a really good conversation.

Anyway, disclaimer here, this is not about me liking anybody, I realise everybody thinks everything in my life is about me liking someone lol.

Anyhow, it’s about how I think I’m so indulgent. I prefer indulgent to materialistic because it’s different. I indulge when I can afford to, I indulge because it’s not something I strived to be but because it’s just me. I don’t purposely chose to be with people who are rich, or people who can give some thing to me because I don’t like to owe people anything. So yeah it’s different. Ah whatever. I work so hard to earn my money, I should be able to use it as I deem fit.

I realise I’m so used to spending that what I consider normal isn’t so normal after all. I was reading a friend’s blog and she was talking about how a $10++ pizza was expensive and taking cabs were expensive. Hmmm.. I mean it is expensive but nowadays I don’t usually have qualms spending those kind of money. Call it what you will but it’s just it. It’s good and bad I guess. Different interpretations.

Anyhow it’s quite funny because Alan kept dissuading me to get a Lamborghini because of how expensive it is and I agree totally even though I still love it. And then our shifu kept encouraging me. haha.. He kept agreeing with me that they are very nice and we should buy them. He even said that for our first big paycheck he won’t take his share of the profits so we can get a Lamborghini and he can ride too. ha ha.. my shifu has expensive tastes too! alan was like what the hell, what are you encouraging her..

but we’ll see.. I think I want something more stable like a house. And very funnily, our shifu say to get a penthouse too.. lol just like me.. and when I told Alan we could live it the car then, our shifu said the same thing heh..

Had the presentation of one of our project today, I’ve no idea whether it’s good or bad.. It’s quite tedious but the tutor was pretty nice about it. But I was super bored in my elective cause it’s so uninteresting and sleep-inducing..

But I’m like so damn busy that I have been skipping a lot of my project meetings simply because I have other meetings at the same time.. Sigh

Roar

Oh did I mention that our car crash and we had to spend 1K repairing it. sigh.. cost a bomb..

Oh anyway my pendant is super duper powerful. My shifu gave it to me and I’m like okayyy. But wow the effects is really O.O

The most powerful effect to date – this guy a friend who doesn’t really give a damn about me normally. As in he’s just like blah.. He actually called me like in the middle of the night and talk to me about his problems and stuffs and didn’t talk to any of his friends about it.

Wow.. okay lah.. not like something i like or don’t but you know..

Oh I’m so happy tonight because I had a good chat with you know who and it’s like so.. sighh… and we made a pact and stuffs.. lol.. okay i’m crapping.. i’m just busy busy.. still rushing my project now..

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You know it irritates us to no end when people are so sceptical of supernatural stuffs that they will only learn their lessons when something bad happens. My belief has always been if there’s a God, there’s bound to be spirits. Whether the chinese type, english type or whatever. Depending on your religion and everything. And we’ve known of so many cases of people who have been proven wrong and then regretting their actions and I still see so many foolish people around trying to provoke what they don’t know, just to show how brave or how different they are..

it just irks to no end.. please, there’s more things in this world that your mind can comprehend.. sheesh..

I think I’m so judgmental nowadays.. Sigh..

Like, I can’t stand people who

act like they are drop-dead gorgeous and everyone’s looking at them when they are like nerdy-looking and super unpolished..

people, ok guys, that like to act cool in a tv show way.. like they will go what’s up man, how are you man, thats so cool man.. grr is man the only word in their dictionary…

and lots of other annoying people hahaha..

ok i’m judgmental..

Headpains

I’ve no idea why I get these blistering headaches practically everyday whose pain level is enough to maim me..

I think it has something to do with my stress levels although I’m trying hard to relax which apparently is not working.

You know I try to comfort myself that school is just so minor as compared to bigger things in life. And the whole point of school (not learning) is just so you can earn money in the future to support a whole load of things including yourself.

And I go on to console myself that less than half a year from now, I’m going to be earning hundreds of thousands of dollars when most of my schoolmates/classmates haven’t even found a job yet.

But these aren’t happening are they?

It still doesn’t get over the fact that into the third week of scho0ol i’m loaded with like 5 projects and for every single tutorial session alone I have to read like at least 30 pages of readings if not more. And it’s definitely more. And it’s not so those stuffs that I can read fast and get through. I’m a damn fast reader by norm standards but these readings are just tedious. You have to pore over every word and details to ‘understand’ every single part of a law, statute, application bla bla.. And everyday this process is repeated.

Sigh why do we have to go to school..

Readings

You know how it is when you are in, say a tutorial class and because you read your materials beforehand, you actually know what the tutor is going on about and you can actually participate in the class..

I kinda like that feeling ,that’s why I’m forcing myself to read chunks and chunks of Financial Reporting Standards. Well basically, in training to be fluent in auditing, you have to know the FRS like the back of your hand. And it’s basically memory and understanding of tons of laws in Singapore and the different situations and applicability and so on.

It’s tedious but when I read it and look at the lecture notes and actually know what they are about, it kinda make me feel extremely satisfied heh..

But a lot more reading to go heh.. I have until about 9pm to finish like one more FRS and 2 more chapters in my text and a reading on the media in America..

blugh..

Cars & such

That day we were driving on the roads and suddenly I heard this pretty loud car engine. It wasn’t the normal beng car engines you hear which was deep, this was more high pitched and screaming kind.. in a nice way.. so i asked alan what was that.. and he replied very nonchalantly “Oh, there’s a lambo behind us.” Like wth right.. I was like “REALLLY??” and got all excited and trying to get a shot.. but i only got like a snap of the headlights haha..

i’ve seen lots of lambos but this one was special cause i could hear the engine really clearly heh..

life’s going to be great i think.. but i won’t have time for leisure stuffs or for friends for now i think.. too many commitments all for the M word..

hmm.. oh but it’s so funny.. cause i asked alan how come we aren’t getting a lambo.. and he’s like lky’s gonna die in like 10 years and we have to save up our money cause singapore will be in chaos.. i’m like sheesh.. but okay maybe true..

but we are looking at houses now!! hehe

exciting plans

Lots of things are going on right now and I’m quite excited but very very tired.

Ok first things first. School is very very taxing.. There’s so much tutorials and projects and I haven’t even started anything yet. But so far my groupmates are all very nice peeps.. so it’s great..

I always wanted to live in a penthouse cause I want a big house but not all by myself? Anyway you know those sort of huge NY-sy houses you see in the movies, yep I like those.. So our business sort of took off and guess what, I could be getting my dream house in about half a year’s time.. like so exciting.. but of course lots of hardwork.. and frankly school is just getting in the way..

And also, we could be changing cars then so we are decided between house or cars although the two of us prefer house first..

I like to be busy but sometimes I just think like I’m only 21 why am I pushing myself so hard. shrugs.. I guess I should see it as a golden chance instead of like a problem..

I just don’t like school! cause it costs so much and so useless and is just taking up too much of my time..

Food

Yesterday we had this fabulous dinner at Intercontinental Hotel. We were deciding what to eat and I said buffet. So since we were at Bugis so we went to the hotel and it was a seafood buffet.

The food was really good.. The prawns and mussels were freshly made on the spot.. The soup like prawn bisque and minestrone were very thick and delicious.. Oh yeah and they also have a chef who make crepes on the spot for you for dessert..

Do go try it cause it’s really good. It’s about 60plus per person without GST and service charge.. So for two person it will come up to about 150 bucks..

Mess

Everything’s getting to me..

All the nitty gritty details are pulling me down with them.

I am so easily irked by so many things.

Like, I’m annoyed that I have to boil water whenever I have to bath.

I can only wash 6 pieces of clothes each time because I don’ have space to hang.

I don’t have space to walk around in my room and it’s messy because they put so many things in the room.

I can’t find used textbooks online.

Yikes.. Actually it’s just the room, over and over again. It’s just getting me down and I hate it..

Cut & Pasted from My So-called life

My So-called life is like one of my favourite shows and it was because of the show that I like Jared Leto so much bla bla so I was reading the transcripts since I was bored and here’s some interesting ones or so I thought heh.

Graham  : I just wasn't expecting to have to meet this guy so soon.  I, I
          wasn't expecting to have to meet ANY guy so soon.
Patty   : Yeah, well.  Neither was I.  But I guess...we are.  I guess she's
          pretty serious about him.  Listen, I think you'd better prepare
          yourself.  I get the definite feeling...that this kid is very good
          looking.
Graham  : So?  What, do you think I can't handle that?
Patty   : <chortle>
Graham  : God, how did it come to this?
Patty   : I don't know!
Graham  : You and your ground rules!
Patty   : Well, what was I supposed to say?  We can't keep her locked in her
          room.
Graham  : Why not?  No, really.  Like, how did locking kids in their room get
          such a bad rap.
Patty   : I don't know.  Look at me.  I'm bloated, I'm very, very interested
          in chocolate-

Patty       : What? No, nobody's expecting you to kill anything. You're
              not involved in the business anymore. I've accepted that.
              You know, the longer I put it off the worse it gets. I've
              just got to do it. [Tastes soup] It needs something.
              [Danielle enters in the Angela costume]
              Oh, good. I thought you'd already gone off with Courtney.
              Listen honey, Camille's going to send Sharon over to pick
              up the chaffing dish. Would you give it to her when she
              comes here? Sweetheart?
Danielle    : Mom, Sharon Cherski and I exist in, like, two different
              worlds, okay? I can't just hand her a dish, okay? I mean
              it's just not that simple.
              [Patty and Graham stare in horror]
              I'm doing Angela. Pretty good, huh?
Patty       : I thought it was starting all over again!
Graham      : Very convincing, Danielle.
Patty       : My God! That was really scary!
Graham      : Your mother and I have to go change into our idiotic
              Halloween costumes now. So you be back over at Courtney's
              at 10:00.
Danielle    : 10:00?  On Halloween?
Patty       : That was very good, Danielle.
Graham      : Yeah.
Patty       : It sounded just like Angela.
Danielle    : That was me!
Patty       : 10:00.