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I don’t really like people who are obvious, if you know what i mean.. It just makes them seem a little pathetic.. hmm..

Like when you go clubbing, it’s alright if you wanna dress a little lesser in the sense of maybe a short skirt, or a tube, etc.. you know.. but you don’t dress like a slut per se.. and if you dress like that it’s obvious you want attention, so when you have it, don’t act like you don’t want it in the first place..

Or when you are out, and you walk in this way trying to tell the whole world ya very pretty and gorgeous when everybody can see that ya not..

It’s stuffs like that that irks me because don’t try to act like something ya not?

I mean people who are really gorgeous and everything don’t really give a damn about what people say and it’s just pathetic how some people behave this way for attention?

Oh I know I’m complaining again.. I’m just happy actually.. That rachel is back from australia for a while at least and we are meeting up on sunday.. and things are going alright.. not too bad..

my friend just asked me to go with him to MOS anniversary party or something like that.. but i said no.. clubbing is just so not my cup of tea although i wished it was otherwise.. i wish i can have more fun at clubbing but i don’t? i rather spend time drink tea, reading books, going gym.. yawn.. boring?

That day my colleague was giving me a hypothetical scenario.. If you are blissfully happy with your bf but ya kinda feeling bored.. There’s another guy who likes you, who is rich, gorgeous, nice ya da ya da.. would u leave your bf or not?

she didn’t believe me when i said no.. GRR..

there used to be a time when i didn’t see anything good in alan.. but now i see everything in him =)

summ

It’s damn funny cause this month alan kept having trouble with the traffic police.. Like we got pulled over for not wearing seatbelts and were fined 120 bucks.. and he kept meeting them along the roads and all.. but yesterday was the funniest.. we went to shell’s car wash.. so we were happily waiting and right behind us suddenly came a police car for car wash too.. hahaha.. he was like “must i meet them everywhere?”

i kinda like my jc students now hahah.. my vjc students are quite funny and my tpjc’s one damn sweet and the mum’s damn nice.. and the mum just introduced another new student to me heh.. i still don’t like my sec 5 student though.. haha cause he’s annoying.. but nvm.. i like to teach cause it’s flexible and i can earn money..

i’m still 4 weeks away from the end of my attachment.. and frankly although it’s quite nice here and the ppl are nice but i’m just way too bored to remain here.. i just like to work and work.. but not wake up So early! school’s starting beginning august and i really hope leo can come nTU haha.. hopefully.. oh i hope i get the car for my bday too! i told alan that he has 3 more weeks to get the fairlady for my birthday hahaha.. hope i’m not stressing him..

on saturday i went to aaron’s birthday party and i couldn’t find my way cause my roomie told me it was blk 644 when it was blk 664.. sheesh.. so i went very late and stayed for a while only.. after that we went M.O.S to celebrate my roomie’s birthday.. but it was quite bad cause i didn’t really eat much that day and vodka on a near empty stomachache just made me damn bloody dizzy and i kinda spoiled the thing because cabin (my fren) and june wanted to dance while roomie didn’t and me with that headache just wanna sit somewhere.. and cabin’s the kind of person who really really wants to dance… so i think he’s pissed with me hahah.. cham liao..

sunday went to another fren’s birthday party.. and basically he cooked for us.. the girl’s the one having the birthday.. and it was sooo delicious.. but i was damn sleepy so had to leave at about 10.. yawn.. i’m having a sleepy monday morning..

Parents

So weird. I just realised something damn weird.

Almost everybody thinks that one should respect (love, spend more time, etc) with the parents regardless of anything as if that’s the law..

They assume that that’s the law even when the parent(s) abused you, abandoned you, etc…

I find it soooo weird.. I mean good and well, I do love my parents to bits and all..

But what their theory means is that if a stranger beats you is totally wrong and they are inhuman.. But when your parent(s) beat(s) you, you should forgive them, etc…

Just because they are ‘parents’ doesn’t automatically make them love the child you know.. I don’t understand why people like to justify these things by saying that they are your parents and you should forgive them and treasure them and not wait till they are gone.

I mean parents are not programmed to love and treasure their children ya? Most parents do. But it’s certainly normal to find those who don’t. So stop using this flawed argument.. Weird people..

Bad day turn good

I’m just so amazed at how a simple message from him can lift up my moods so easily. Today was doomed to be a bad day.. Because first I have to come to work late, I didn’t bring my drawer keys so I couldn’t access my laptop, I didn’t bring my wallet so I can’t buy drinks or anything and my boss was in a cranky mood.

So  I thought that’s it, today would be a bad day. But I replied his message and his reply came in. And then everything seemed so much better..

I know how this would seemed like I like him and all, but I don’t. Not in that way that I did. I just like the thought of being friends and the reality of being friends. And I’m just happy in my own way..

So it feels kinda sad that he’s leaving…

Hmmm

At this point in my life right now, I feel as if we are working mindlessly.. It’s like work is all there is to life.. Yet, I don’t feel really sad or depressed. You know I thrive on work. I like to work and make stuffs out of nothing because of the sense of accomplishment.

I just wonder when are we going to make it finally. It’s a long shot but the company makes it all worthwhile..

Kindness

You know I don’t comment on people’s habits at all. Because I’m definitely not in a position to judge anybody since I’ve many nasty habits of my own. But I definitely strongly dislike people who judge me especially people who have very bad habits of their own.

You have no right to judge me and I don’t give a damn what you think. If you yourself is capable of much worse things and I have always covered up for you no questions asked, I don’t expect you to judge me back.

I was seriously so frickin pissed. Seriously people nowadays don’t deserve kindness. They just pay you back in a nasty way.

Scales..

It doesn’t matter if you got her huge, expensive presents for her birthday, when you weren’t there on normal days. It doesn’t matter if you work so hard for your family’s sake when you weren’t there to watch your kids grow up.

Humans are like that. They want constant reminder that they are special and important. And that comes from daily actions rather than a huge act a year.

It makes them feel unfair when…

The kids skipped soccer practice so they could cook dinner for dad’s birthday.

The wife bailed out on her friends to catch the husband’s favourite movie with him.

Sacrifices were made. Bad impressions were created.

Irresponsible worker.

Unloyal friend.

It all didn’t matter because she only wanted to be there with him for the maximum time possible. Even if that means skipping out on meeting her friends, on waiting for him for hours to see him, on cancelling meetings and appointments… It didn’t matter one bit..

But it’s unfair.. because it didn’t matter to him at all… meetings went on.. because it is important to be responsible to those you promised, to answer to your responsibilities..

all your responsibilities and loyalties were important except hers..

stickmans drawings

 

ok come come, tell me which one is nicest for you.. i wanna see if everybody’s opinions is the same.. the numbering is    1        2         3

                                                     4        5         6

so which is your favourite?

i quite like 3 and 6.. =)

oh by the way, i met this girl who holds the door exactly like me =) such a sweet person!

Boing

                                        

Look at this two pictures if ya free.. I’m posting them for fun but the point is big organisations like NTU cannot get their messages across effectively. I’ve no idea which date I should register for my subs man.. One of the day is for students of Acc Year 3 who do not have overloading of subs, and the othe one is for those who passed any subs and the common one is for everybody. I think if I remember correctly. Sheesh. I don’t wanna miss my registration dates because I wanna get good lesson slots.. Cause the last time I register, I click and click right on the dot and I managed to get all the slots that I want but for one.. Yay..

Anyway speaking of business.. I’m damn fricking excited can.. Because we are starting a new business with our friends.. as in me and alan.. And I’ll be doing what I love.. haha which is quite lame.. I’ll be doing like the paperwork.. Ok I know paperwork are not fun but I like to organise stuffs! I’ll be printing and designing invoices, answering inquiries and phone calls, billing people, scheduling the jobs ya da ya da.. damn frickin exciting heh..

And you know ar, my boss is really quite slack here.. here just disappeared at about 4 and dont know went to where.. must be off surfing his porn or something.. seriously he surfs porn everyday in the office and even store them in a folder.. yucks.. haha i was telling leo all about it and he was like wtf..

Recount

You know how it is when you have dreams, and when you wake up from them you find yourself wanting more.. Be it a dream of an object – a car, a house, or a person alive or passed on.. The dreams more often than not leave you wanting more…

Well recently, Alan and I got to know two of our friends better.. The two being a couple and all.. So anyway they are very, I wouldn’t say versed in ghosts and the likes.. I don’t like to use verse because it signifies knowledge of theoretical stuffs when in fact their knowledge are more practical than theoretical to say..

Anyway they totally terrified me yesterday with all their experiences with the other kinds.. It was really terrifying cause I was kept awake most of the time haha.. And what’s with the winds at Marine Parade always howling during a rainy patch it just got terrible..

 Ask me to tell you the experiences they had!! Although I’m a lousy storyteller haha.. I’ll probably spoil the story man, but these experiences are as real as you can get..

Oh by the way, the porridge at Chinatown trashes the one I had at Geyland.. The frog leg porridge is damn damn nice..

Now everything would be perfect if my attachment would just bloody end and I can find that certain someone to reply..

 It’s so funny how StarHub is like banning all the blogs that I visit lah.. They just updated their system and apparently most of the blogs I visited are banned now.. Wth! Grr..

And I’m so annoyed with people who think that tuition teachers are supposed to be God of Books or something.. It’s like hello i’m teaching for the money, I don’t want to know every fricking thing about chemistry. Can you be thankful that I know almost everything that you are supposed to know for the syllabus and if I happen to get something which is out of the syllabus wrong, it’s quite ‘acceptable’. Argh. I can’t stand students who expect teachers to know EVERYTHING on the spot somemore.. Alan made me teach one of his students when I didn’t want to accept anymore and he asked me something which is totally out of syllabus and I told him so and he insisted on asking me and I got it wrong but I edited it later for him when I realised I was wrong. And he quit after the first lesson. Like go get a life pls.. He’s only from Temasek when my VJC students don’t even find anything wrong with it.. Sheesh.. Ok I’m just pissed cause they think I’m very free to read up everything single thing on chemistry when I’m already working 7 days and barely have time to prepare questions.

Oh yah can I complain somemore.. I ‘love’ to hold doors for people. As in I really don’t mind holding doors for people when they are quite near me sometimes.. But some very inconsiderate, I-don’t-know-what-world-they-live-in people just take it for granted and they can just let you stand there and hold the door for them while they walk through the door slowly without lifting their hands to finally hold the door themselves without a word of thanks.. fuck off lah.. do i look like your servant.. fucking idiots.. can’t stand these people and they act like it’s perfectly ordinary for me to stand at the door and wait for them.. asses.. unlike those people who bother to hold the door for themselves ultimately and thank me very nicely for it.. grrr