Is it even possible to love someone so damn much, when he’s not even doing anything in particular?

I’m just super in love & I’ve no idea why.

Methinks I’m an idiot.

We were talking about guys and he thinks he’s not any much cuter than some other people whom I totally am not interested in.

Tsk.

If only he sees himself the way I see him..

I love how distracted he sounds when he’s busy concentrating on work and I’m trying my darnest to distract him for the hell out of it :p

Him trying to multi-task & failing is damn adorable.

I love how he stares into space when he smokes or we are having a meal.

I love how his lips pursed together when he’s contemplating something.

I love how he pushes his hair up when he’s frustrated.

I love how he drags out my name when he’s trying to irritate me.

I love how he acts blur to irritate me when he does actually understand.

I love how he gives in to my demands all the time, maybe that’s why he’s spoiling me. Cause I know he will give in usually.

I love how he’s never ever really angry with me no matter how annoying I am.

There’s so much I love about him and despite it being one of my greatest regret that he’s not mine, I’m still thankful that we are so close now, more than ever.

And as I tried to tell him the reason why I ask him so often, and he so stupidly refuse to understand grrrr

The reason why I keep asking you is because I want you to remember how you once felt for me and I want you to remember how much you loved me and wanted me. I want you to remember that it’s more than just a figment of my imagination.

It’s the same reason why people like to be reminded of their past achievements and the likes.

Because that’s when they know people remember them, remember the connection & love they once shared. That they were not forgotten that quickly.

That he did not forget me nor forget how much he loved me. I can perfectly understand why he can’t be with me and as much as I don’t like it, I accept it. But I don’t want him to forget what he once felt for me and I don’t want it to be just a figment of my imagination or memory.

And that’s the reason why I ask you so very often.

Because I want to remember, and I want you to remember; what you once felt when she wasn’t around in your heart for that period of time.

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Blog Closed.

Blog Closed.

confusing

It’s all so confusing. He loves me so much and I love him so much and yet we can’t be together cause of some stupid prediction and other blah stuffs. SIGH.

Why is it so difficult?

And then the other one is just… Sigh I feel like I owe him or something.

=.=

Interview on Friday!

I’ve lost a hell lot of blood this month. Now I’m crippled and surviving with one hand. sigh.

the pain is killing me.

i’m pretty confused about everything now but i don’t feel like blogging about them.

we’ll see how it goes. but i’m thankful for the effort put in by them

I’m damn tired.. Went to watch what happened in vegas yesterday with the 3 of them at Cathay. It’s actually a pretty good movie. The whole cinema was laughing the whole time yeah..

Then went to seoti’s house to play game and drink beer.. It’s damn funny cause at like 5am in the morning, we were all stoned and playing intellectual word games…

Reached home abt 630 and just woke up…

I’m actually pretty tired messaging him and all.. Hahah… I guess the fun wears on and off… I don’t know.. We won’t ever be in relationship but I guess we like each other’s company…

I’m pretty self-entertained nowadays.. haha good eh..

ok time to bath and go out!

It’s so weird.

I’m supposed to be happy now but I’m feeling a little emo.. I’m not sure why…

Maybe it’s because of Alan, maybe it’s because of somebody else. Or maybe it’s just about the state of my life now…

I’ve no idea.

I miss Alan. Wanted to look for him. But devil asked me not to play with fire. I’ll end up with hurt, pain and tears again. Will I?

I don’t know if what I did was right. But now I’m all about indulgence…

Well the good news now is that my skin is damn good now. haha I’m like glowing again. But it’s always like this after the laser increases my skin peeling off rate. Then after that it gets dull again..

It’s not good to over analyse people. When you do, you will end up falling for their character or end up hating them.

Either way, it’s not good to be obsessed. That’s the problem with me, I like to find out everything I can about a person.

Some days I feel like he’s telling me the truth, but other day I feel like he’s just playing me…

I won’t make anybody the centre of my life again, besides Alan, and I’m doing pretty well so far =)

The break of a new dawn…

The break of a new dawn…

Indulgence is my motto in life right? And indulge I did…

I’m glad I did what I did because it gave me a better perspective of life and what I want…

But then again, I’ll prob regret it when I wake up tomorrow so what the hell…

But I have three weeks to think about it…

Hmmm

love

I love to be with Alan because only with him, I have no inhibitions. I can be myself. I don’t have to worry about whether I look ugly, whether I have make up, whether I’m fat, whether I’m eating the right way, sitting the right way, I can say anything I want and be who I want to be…

He makes me feel free…

I feel the need to be faithful to him… But then again, it’s not very agonizing a test leh? Why huh?